On due dates and depression
I must be the queen of bad timing. I checked the calendar today and should get my period on the due date of my first baby. In NINE days. September 8. I'm terrified of that date, looming ever closer. It isn't so much that I'm devastated, though I am. I'm just very afraid of how I'll actually react when that day comes.
And I thought, "But if i have a positive pregnancy test then, maybe it will be easier to deal with." Based on my previous two pregnancies, I don't get positive tests before my period is late. And the thought of getting a negative between now and then, or, worse, on that day? Is something I can't handle. Of course, with today being cd15 and my OPKs still negative, my cycle could be longer than expected.