Tuesday, January 04, 2005

The MRI

Dr. P called me this morning to give me the results of the MRI. They confirmed what he had already suspected from the HSG. I have a unicornuate uterus. Am completely devastated. Am emotionally drained after all the crying and fighting with my husband about how to proceed and the fact that we just don't have the money to do it yet.

My doctor recommended I contact an RE he knows in Connecticut who deals with uterine anomalies . Dr. P and my perinatologist both think that I should have further testing (the 3D ultrasound, the laporoscopy). And they both cautioned me that with this condition it becomes a matter of how much I can take. I have such high risk for 1st and 2nd trimester miscarriage. I will likely have many more. But one of the pregnancies could result in a 34/35 weeker being delivered via c-section.

I didn't call the RE today. I couldn't deal with it. Maybe tomorrow. Right now I'm trying to figure out how I can pay for this...whether in the end I'll adopt for a gestational surrogate or if I will adopt... The one thing that I know is that I can't keep getting pregnant in the hopes that maybe one day it won't end with me in a puddle of tears in the recovery room after a D&C.

You will all excuse me if I stay in my cave for a while.

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Comments about my post, "The MRI":

What can I say my friend except I'm sorry. Take all the time you want in the cave. I'm sure you'll reach the decision that's right for you both and for your future, whatever it holds and whatever you decide.

I'll be thinking of you in the meantime and wishing you nothing but good.

[ Permalink ] posted by Dee : 8:09 PM

I'm so, so sorry. I know it won't help at all, but - I know what that particular brand of devastation feels like. It's wrenching. I'm just so sorry.

Whatever you need, let me know.

- getupgrrl

[ Permalink ] posted by Anonymous : 8:39 PM

I'm so sorry you are having to deal with this. In or out of the cave, we are all here for you.

Moogielou

[ Permalink ] posted by Anonymous : 9:54 PM

Simone here...(A former Miss W herself) just to offer a hand on your shoulder.
I have a didelphys uterus (like 2 seperate unicornate) Why stop at one?
I am so sorry for your shocking discovery. It sure knocks you to your knees. I found out 2 years ago. There are some good sites around, with encouraging statistics for uterine abnomilies/pregnancies...that said, I will shut up & leave you to your cave....but there are a few of us abnomily gals around...Soper? Your turn for aspiring words.....

[ Permalink ] posted by Anonymous : 11:43 PM

I am so, so sorry to hear this news. I will be thinking of you and praying for you.

[ Permalink ] posted by Heather : 11:50 PM

I'm sorry about the results. I just wanted to let you know that I'm here for you.

xxoo,
Emily

[ Permalink ] posted by Anonymous : 12:29 AM

I am so sorry about your diagnosis. I hope I am not being too forward but I belong to a online support group of women like myself who have uterine abnormalities that have supplied me with more information and questions to ask my doctors. It has been a huge help dealing with a uterine abnormality. Please know that you can email me anytime for support.

Take care - Chana

[ Permalink ] posted by Anonymous : 8:50 AM

I'm so sorry to hear the bad news. I think staying in your cave for a while as you absorb all of this is a damned fine idea.

I did want to tell you, though, that I know of women who've recovered from huge uterine abnormalities. Finding a doctor who knows his/her stuff is the first step.

Additionally, might you not be able to get insurance to cover this as a general health problem - not an aspect of the dreaded "Infertility"? I was able to have my lap/hysteroscopy covered (as well as the other testing) because it was germaine to my overall health. Just a thought.

Julia
Uncommon Misconception

[ Permalink ] posted by Anonymous : 3:01 PM

I am so sorry.

[ Permalink ] posted by JJ : 5:21 PM

This is heartbreaking. Please post the address of your cave so I can send chocolate. Thinking of you.

[ Permalink ] posted by E. : 3:26 PM

Oh no.

[ Permalink ] posted by Kath : 4:36 AM