Miss W -->

   Thursday, July 07, 2005  

The one with even more neuroses

Today I am 13 weeks pregnant. I am still uncomfortable with the entire situation. I have another appointment with the perinatologist tomorrow. This will be my first appointment without an ultrasound scheduled. Since we were able to hear a heartbeat with the doppler on the last visit, they don't think it's necessary to do another ultrasound.

Proving my neuroses once again (as if anyone needs further proof of that!), Mr. W wants to rent a doppler ... But I won't let him. My biggest fear is that if we rent one, we would have a problem before it gets here. On the other hand, I can't go two weeks between appointments again without some kind of proof that things are still ok. I can go one week without completely losing it, but two is just too much.

And as I slowly get past the fear of miscarriage, I begin to fear the issues of incompetent cervix and pre-term labor that are common among women with uterine anomalies. In addition to that, for the past three generations, Mr. W's family have produced abnormally LARGE babies (literally, his grandmother? a 14 pound baby. His mother? 10 pounds. Mr. W? 12 pounds. His sister? 10 pounds...and she was induced a full MONTH early because the doctors feared the size she would reach if she went full term! Now, with my small ute...how exactly can I handle something like that??? I fear it now because members of my family, when looking at pictures of me taken two days ago said, "You look at least 5 months!!!" and, "Are you sure this isn't twins??") November, when I hit 30 weeks, just seems so very far away and so impossible to achieve.

I just wish I could decide if renting a doppler would make me feel better...or worse. I simply don't know what the right thing to do is.

   [ posted  @ 4:49 PM ] [ Post a Comment ] [ View Comments (5) ]
   [ E-mail this Post ]

  Comments about my post, "The one with even more neuroses":
Rent the doppler. I couldn't have survived this pregnancy without mine. I still won't return it, even though the kid is karate-chopping me on a regular basis now.

And if you rent from babybeat.com it practically comes the day after you order it. Two days, tops. Not a lot of time to leave you in freaking-out-I've-jinxed-everything limbo.
Go ahead, rent it. It'll make you feel better.

I think it helped Zoot a lot. It has been good for her to have around if she gets an urge just to check on NikkiZ...
Congratulations MissW on making it to 13w.

To be the dissenter amongst your readers, I wouldnt rent the doppler. At 16w my ob couldnt find the heart beat with his. I of course freaked out until he found the little sucker on the ultrasound machine.

So, had I have rented my own doppler and one day failed to hear the heartbeat - I would have just died. Would I have been able to rush in and get an emergency scan to find it? Probably not. So I prefer to live in harmouious oblivion where no news is good news.

Of course its up to you and it has the benefits your other readers mention. But they also have their downfalls.

Good luck
Me, I had to rent the doppler. I am just so neurotic and wanted the ability to be able to hear that beat anytime I had doubts...and I had plenty. Toward the end of my pregnancy, I began to question whether I should send it back, especially since I could feel the baby moving around so much and that was reassuring. But sometimes she was still...and I needed that doppler just as I had in the early days.

If I were you, I'd rent it. Just the reassurance of having it to check could be helpful. And if not, then don't rent it. Either way, I know you and Mr. W will decide what's best for the two of you.

Hang in there my friend....

August 2004
September 2004
October 2004
November 2004
December 2004
January 2005
February 2005
March 2005
April 2005
May 2005
June 2005
July 2005
August 2005
September 2005
October 2005
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009
October 2009
November 2009
December 2009
February 2010
May 2010
June 2010
March 2011
April 2011
August 2011

A Little Pregnant
Barren Mare
Broken or Not
Chez Miscarriage
Fractured Fairytale
Here Be Hippogriffs
Horkin Ramblings
Never Ever Late
One Pink Line
The RE's Muse
Scrambled Eggs
So Close
Uncommon Misconception
The Unproductive Reproductive
Wasted Birth Control

[=Powered By=]

[=Designed By=]

Customized by Miss W
Scripts / Code by "Mr. W"

Send Miss W. E-Mail!