Tuesday, September 06, 2005

An update from the bed

Today has been a rather rough day for me emotionally. After having my parents with me all weekend and Mr. W's three day weekend, it was hard to return to being alone again. I spent most of the day in bed because I just didn't have the gumption to move to the couch.

And then this afternoon the pain started. It seems that from laying in odd positions (shoulders flat on my pillow as if laying on my back but hips and legs on my side) while reading and using my laptop, I have some muscle pain in various areas of my stomach. This makes it especially fun when getting up to go to the bathroom -- something I've had to do non-stop today. I'm trying to be logical about this realizing that the pain feels entirely surface-y and not as though it's within me. My little w has been kicking consistently today and his heartbeat is still nice and strong (yes, I did freak out after Mr. W came home and we pulled out the doppler for a listen...and it took ten minutes to find his heartbeat as he kept moving).

I keep trying to remind myself that we are just a bit over 2 weeks away from him having a 50% survival rate and I really feel like I can make it there. And it's only 4 weeks to a >80% survival rate. I just keep hoping and praying. But I really hate the way I feel today. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day.

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Comments about my post, "An update from the bed":

Its bizarre the small milestones we cling too. I am now over your 80% milestone and its truly wonderful to have that really stressful time behind me.

I am sure the aches are just growing pains. You very well behaved with the bedrest.

[ Permalink ] posted by Kath : 11:16 PM

Continuing to hope for you that your days get easier and the time passes quickly.

[ Permalink ] posted by cat : 8:03 PM