Saturday, October 22, 2005
Insomnia my old friend
I can't sleep. Again. It's after 1 in the morning and yet here I am, wide awake. I'm tired. Tired as can be. But I close my eyes...and nothing. I was almost asleep once. Then Mr. W turned off the television and his laptop and promptly fell asleep. For whatever reason, once those appliances were off? I was no longer sleepy.
Or maybe I am but am panicking again. Over what is surely nothing. We tried to go out to dinner tonight but upon pulling into the lot I got a terrible stomach ache. I went to the bathroom thinking I was going to be ill, but nothing. I decided that I just wanted to be home in bed. I apologized profusely to Mr. W and came home for a dinner of Kraft EasyMac and pre-fab mashed potatoes. Eaten in bed. With a large glass of water.
The stomach pains did go away for the most part -- there is still some tenderness. I keep thinking I should go to the bathroom but I can't. I haven't gone all day so I know that I need to...but will it happen? I could take a colace, but then I fear that if this pain is something else and I go to the hospital the colace will have been a bad thing (seriously, can't go to the bathroom that way anywhere but my house and my parents' house).
So...I'm awake. And worrying about how high my blood pressure was today. Rather intelligent on my part, isn't it? To worry about something knowing that by worrying I'll actually keep it elevated. And seriously, WHY did I read every article known to Google about pre-eclampsia today? The doctor doesn't even think I actually have that! Am a very stupid woman sometimes.
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